Best Thing Dat Ever Happend 2 Me

one day i, i met dis cute sexy gal in ou.she was there wif her fellow cheerleaders.while i was playin pool der, our eyes made a connection dat day.her eyes was superb n rite afta dat i noe im in love bak.a few weeks afta dat, i was in jelutong wif my fren eatin wen she walked pass.my fren told me her name n i askd him 2 said hi 4 me coz him is goin sumwer wif her.den i chat wif her alot n calld.at 1st she really wasnt interested bt afta awhile it became love.on da 7 of 10, rite afta her pmr we hookd up..it was fun bein wif her coz shes funny silly n always made me laugh at her silly lame jokes..on our 1 anniversary, she made me a 100 hearts n a beautiful glitterish card plus she gave it 2 me face 2 face.damn i was very nervous n meltd dat day..wen i opend it, da hearrts dropd on da floor coz da box is smal.i dont noe how n y i said "wat is dis ruubbish" 2 her..i tot u will take it as a joke bt den i noe its my fault 2 called it dat..im sory..afta dat all of dis starts 2 go wrong.i broke her heart again n again..i really dont noe y..it juz happend in a blink of eye.. :( .. n yesta, i hv 2 let her go bcoz i cant stand it breakin her heart.its like breakin my heart 2..sigh im juz a fuckin useless boyfren..n i blew my chances again wen sum1 told her dat i smoked which i promise her dat i will try 2 stop..i did it juz once durin spm coz was stress up..bt wat she said is correct. i really should think of her b4 i did it.damn now i really miss her n i cant tell her how much i love her anymore..im juz a fuckin big jerk.. fuck!!

ps- if ur readin dis baby,i wan u 2 noe i did dis 4 da best 2 us n best 4 u..i dont wan 2 break ur heart anymore.i dont wan 2 lie anymore.its juz bad 4 me 2 take it, everytime i broke it, i hd 2 suffer like alot.ive even cried bcoz i really dont wan 2 lose u.i was quite close n da smokin thing happend.damn.im so sory gal..really do..ur da best thing da a guy can ebery dream of baby.i serious.bt its not ur fault.all of dis is mine..im juz so stupid..im sory..i love u so much n i wan u 2 noe dat i will always be in ur heart at all times..im sory

NSSSSSSSS

ns list juz came out 2day..during da last period or 2nd last which is chem..pn norela hv 2 go bak n dis new teacher ganti her..so we all like go out from da class 2 da it room..der i found 2 other peserta ns(hjeheh) which is shuwen n emilia...afta john check his name is my turn 2 go..was shakin wen i wan 2 press my ic..bt sory 2 say dont hv 2 go..hahaha..i was running inside da it room wif joy beside me..haha..shuwen was lookin n wanna start 2 cry...haha...so sad...i dont think she can sleeps 2nite...i noe i can..haha..gud luck 2 all ns ppl..hv fun

i feel so

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
wish I could feel no pain
wish I was young
wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I


Cause’ I feel so mad
I feel so angry
Feel so careless
So lost confused
Feel so cheep
So used unfaithful


Sometimes I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could give
I wish I could change the world
For you and me


Cause’ I feel so mad

so stupid

damn..i was so so stupid 2day...shuld hv 2 talk 2 her...now im emoing in my room...y is it so hard 2 talk 2 da gal i love da most?? arh!!! shes like everyting 2 me n i spoild alot of chances...i hv 2 do sumthin bout dis!!!!

ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

borinnnnn

mmmm....fuckin borin at home...no one at home...huhu...end up watchin suite life of zack n cody..oohh i wish my life is like dat..haha..i wan 2 stay in hilton or istana..hahaha..quite cool man..den i watch dis af4 thingy..i saw RICH(vocalist for estranged a malaysian rock band) in af4..i was like wat de hack...1st andy(drummer of estranged) join hitz.tv vj hunt..of coz he won...den now rich..wat la...he was da best of da rest..haha...duh!!!! he is already an artist..my 1st week of holi was sux like shit...have 2 wake up early..seminar at 8 in wangsa maju..seminar until 3 pm...so so fuckin tired..had bbq in my house..it was like fuckin hell..watchd myteam..suxla..bodo gile...kalah by 2 stupid free kickz..haaha..bt da best part is my dad's laugh..haha..they freakd my frenz out..haha...thx 2 my 2 lovin cousin 4 cookin 4 us..haha..

bz doiu..exams.....fucking cina wans me 2 do a karangan everyday n send 2 her everyday...fuckup..i hv 2 do 20++++++ karangans masa exam week..i got back my com 2day..plan wan 2 study chem n sej bt got com no need 2 studyla...haha...c yazz

IU day

iu day was aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa blast...security suxz...i hv 2 guard da door..pretty penat dat day..bt got 2 c alot of cun chickis..jessica(form3) was hot..alina was hot 2..dina 2..mmm..got alot la..even dzul looks hot 2.hahaa..afta iu, we wen 2 johnny n pat's bufday..free foody...nice food also...yummy..i think fir syahir n me went bak around 1...first day wan 2 karaoke until 3..but no MONEY..hahahaaha...
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